It has been a while…

…since I wrote for my blog. A lot has happened and whilst it hasn’t been all good, I honestly believe all things happen for a reason. The last time I posted was over a year ago and life was good, happy children, dream job and studying a subject that I loved.

Then I became ill.

I have B12 deficiency and Fibromyalgia both of which I will have for the rest of my life. I am lucky that they are not life threatening (as long as I continue to have B12 injections) but they have had a huge impact on the way I live my life and the life of those around me.

This has forced me to look at my previous life and make some hard decisions about what is best for me, how I can work towards a happier healthier life.  It has made me look at how I define who I am, what makes me, well me.

Nearly a year after I first became ill I can honestly say I am looking forward to 2016,  I am looking back over the last year not as one of the worst of my life but as one that has made me stronger and appreciate in a different way those who love me and support me.

Despite having days where I can’t get out of bed, I realise that not being able to stand and walk should not be an excuse to give up on living. So what if I can’t do all the things on my ‘bucket list’. I’m going to put that list away with hope for the future and write a list of things I can do now.

This last year has been a steep learning curve and next year might be too, but I am going to take it one day at a time, ask for help when i need it, do what I can and not beat myself up about what I can’t do or what people think I should be doing.

I am going to live in the here and now, accept what has passed as I cannot change it and that the future is what I make it. I’m going to listen to my body, I’m going enjoy being with my loved ones and do things that nourish my mind and soul.

I am going to accept my illness, embrace the changes in my life that it brings and not let it, and all it entails, define who I am.

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